nothing nice comes out of this

2010-11-14T05:49:00.000-08:00

life without you.a cut off from your world.will i survive?

2010-10-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

"if you're more mature.i would fall for you"
i guess theres many things for me to learn.

2010-09-13T05:12:00.001-07:00

why do i have such high hopes?maybe because when i called you in the past for help you never ignore me.i was thankful.i thought to myself when i start having a job i will repay you.will i fucking suck you dry? tmd.friend,i wont.i believe my boyfriend ought to spend money on me but i wont take friends money.what you are doing now is not a good choice

2010-08-01T09:10:00.000-07:00

if you have been reading
i've been contemplating if i should delete you from my world.
my facebook.my phone my life.
if we continue like this.we are like in the middle of no where.
using each others as spare tires.
friends.if that is what i want to be with you.i should make this step
this pain i must go through.for my own good.a better future.
you told me im an inexperience player.you make love sound like a battlefield.
i think its you that has a misconception of it.
love should be blissful.

2010-07-31T00:46:00.000-07:00

be strong be strong be strong.
seems so tiring and its draining me away.
but if im not i will just keep hurting myself.
i cant always rely on others.no one can.
that guardian angel wont always be there.
in the past i always thought somehow someone will come to my rescue.
school stuff going to get beaten up and stuff.
but now.if its fading away.i should learn to stand by myself.
luck wont be with me all the time

2010-07-15T20:34:00.000-07:00

what if you found out that din you made was because of a misunderstanding.you mis understood that loved one of yours.you done great hurt to you and him.cause of one insignificant thing a bigger thing happened and forever both of you are over.its like this huge stone dropped between both of you it will never go away.at first it was anger.when it cools down the pain starts setting in.every action seems to remind you what damage you had done cutting that wound deeper and deeper.but come to think of it he just dont love you enough isnt it.your tears your sorrow that person dont care.he just kept blaming its your fault all your fault.why for throwing yourself deeper and depper.

im keen to know every new move you are making yet those new moves wont stop hurting me.it only reminds me we are over.every second i feel as if im drifting further away from you.one day we will be two saperate worlds.just like how we are when we first met just that memories and this big stone will never go away.you dont love me enough and i dont love you that much too thats why that biggest obstacle we will never get through.its over its all over its the choice you made you would say.it over all over cause our love isnt strong enough to lift this big stone out of our way.but if i dont love you that much why does it hurt so deep?

2010-07-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

can you sms me say you will let me attend the events you will be attending?can you sms me say you will stop this crazy lifestyle.can you promise me you will never lie?i dont even accept white lie.promise me all this thing and do them.but i dont think you will.you dont think im worth it.its all about you.it hurts for almost two year.memories bittersweet.

2010-06-25T11:56:00.001-07:00

how can you flare up just like this.cant you be more understanding.i've been bottling this up since morning.its kinda hard.i think we have become two different worlds.im sleeping youre awake.when im awake you sleep.ever since you got out of army your time totally changed.sleep at 7 am wake at 7pm.i slp you wake i wake you slp.how to work out this way?i've trying hard to stay up late.but you just slp even later.i cant stand this.this is cos of your work.isnt it the same when i was working at kbox?how you felt?this was the reason why me and my first bf broke up.i dont want us to be this way too.or you wont even bother?
i know is for the sake of the future.but..im going through things im trying hard to adapt.shouldnt you be there for me instead of still letting me tolerate your attitude?fuck it.no matter what i say.it seems futile.feel like banging my head on the wall hopeless.!!!!!

2010-06-16T09:33:00.000-07:00

im so filled with envy.cause i know im not one of them.so many truly happy faces on their wedding photos but when i picture me taking a wedding photo with him.its like doomsday."if you were pregnant you give me attitude and shout at me you think i will still keep quiet and marry you?i'll ask you to fuck off"someone said that last night at a kopitiam."next time dont order food when i nvr say you can"someone told me that two days ago.hurtful words.my fault?why everything my fault??i your dog or i your maid?imagine me pregnant with your child how pathetic would i be.you push blames onto me even if i did nothing.your success i was nvr part of them.but you faults your mishaps your troubles,failures,problems all seems to be my fault.what are you venting on me?do i deserve that?

this afternoon you told me you love me.how fake.

2010-06-12T09:48:00.000-07:00

5 days to predict my future.just a yes or no will decide everything.but everything happens for a reason right?what ever the outcome will be i have to face the music.
lying there looking at you.im scared.something dawned on me.all this stubborn trait of mine brought me no where.i felt like breaking down.im always thinking why why must it be me?its all my choices.consequences i have to bear.
seeing you with your brown hair now only brings me more worries.how can i move a mountain?how can i make a leopard change its spots.yet im hopelessly stuck.

2010-05-20T13:50:00.000-07:00

been thinking and thinking and thinking.
contentment is hapiness but greed always get in the way.in nature one animal eats another for survival.humans not only feeds on another being they also feed on fellow humans.practically killing each other not only for physical needs.but also delighting in finding another one of them in a sorry plight to feed their Physiological needs.
its really scary just to fufill their mental hierarchy.they have to destroy others and use them as stepping stones.
humans are evil.compare so much for what.seeing another one of you being inferior gives you joy?do you have to use another's sorrow to build up your self esteem.
humans are so damn pathetic.cant believe im getting influenced by all these society shit.i have always been protected by my family so i do not know how to fend for myself.i fell hard real hard.i hope i can wisen up.

2010-05-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

SCROOGE
i think its me. to save a 5 dollar cab fare i rather walk home with swollen and bleeding toes.was closing up the stall trying to take the metal thingy it drop and hit my toes.many ppl may find ppl like me annoying.stupid.they dont understand.after i manage to endure the pain and reach home i felt proud of myself.
i often got critisized by being a scrooge.but thats me nothing's gonna change.i dunno how to throw a long line and get a big fish.there is a thin line between a scrooge and a big spender.just like a straight forward person with no schemes and a scheming person who know to get more at least must throw a little in.both are trying to get the same thing just that the scrooge holds no plots in their brain.stop being not happy of this trait of mine.at least im not that smiley face tiger that most of the girls are now.smiling friendly faces generous give ins but behind many plots that wanna suck you dry.smiling ppl are the one you must be most careful of

2010-04-28T10:16:00.000-07:00

hi birthday,
this year you seem meaningless.
im sorry,sorry to many who i had given up or neglected.
im soo sorry to see them get hurt over me.
their care,love im scared to accept cause i dont think i am worth.
i wanted to change for them but i dont have the courage and strength to.
everytime they care for me i feel like crying.im sorry.its not that i dont love your is just that i dont want your to see me continue to wallow in this state.im now a good for nothing.i dont know how to face them anymore.im not worth not fit.im sorry a big big big sorry.i bought all these upon myself,all my fault.im sorry to see your sad over me.people like me shoudnt live.
they only want me to live like a normal decent good girl.but i fail them again and again.im sorry.

2010-04-19T11:49:00.001-07:00

anyone know the feeling as if you are tearing apart?you know what wei qu is?the past bugs me.

boyf made me felt that.first was girls.then two stupid incident then another involves his ex.and the stupid day at power house when i cried like a mad woman.the feeling is like im fucking unhappy with this but i cant do anything i can only stand aside watching my heart break bit by bit.end of everything still must smile act nth happen.cos i cant step over the boundaries.

.the time i saw the reply she sent.my heart literally broke.you fucking tear my heart apart.your promises you broke.even after what you promised me you still can send that fucking sms to her and delete it away thinking i wont know.

baby it hurts.after all i have gone thru for u.it really hurts like fuck.after this you can still ask your guy friend intro girl to you.when i ask you you say its only a casual remark thats the way you talk to your buddies.am i that naive?msging girls ask them how old are they.i asked you to stop before.but you wont.you wont STOP.what can i still do.i can only act like i dont bother and set you free.i hate you for being so desperate but what i can do.smile act as if nth happen.pls stop doing all these i dunno how long i can take this.im tearing apart.

baby i hate to love you sometimes i wish i can be set free but i know i cant.i tried to know other guys,but i cant get myself to leave you.how?
i hate myself.i really hate myself i fucking hate myself.
I DUNNO WHAT TO DO.MY WORLD IF FILLED WITH MORE AND MORE HATRED..BUT IT SEEMS I HAVE NO WHERE TO GO.IM SO FAKE!!!IM SO UNHAPPY SO ANGRY SO RESENTFUL I DONT WANT IT,I WISH I COULD VENT OUT ALL THIS FUSTRATION AND SOMEONE TO CARE FOR ME.BUT NO,I CANT ONLY KEEP QUIET AND SMILE EVERYDAY SAYING I LOVE YOU.
its karma for me to meet you.karma

2010-04-14T00:26:00.000-07:00

dear boyfriend,
i've been in your arms like a child for too long.
you kept urging me to grow up.stop relying on you.
saying one day if you are gone how can i manage.
i get angry.thinking you dont think we will last.
you said its not like this.
i dont understand it in the past.but now i kind of understand.
i will still love you no less
but i will learn to be independant too.
when you say i cant really rely on you,im relying on others more thats when i realise
im getting my stand.i starting to know what i want in my life.
for now i just want those cheap thrills but i believe after all these i will find my goal.
i used to be drifting but now i seem to see a blur vision.i want to make that blur vision clearer.
if you can uds me.im still relying on you and no one else.

2010-03-30T02:02:00.000-07:00

hey baby.
i wanna tell you that i was so damn happy when i saw you ready to sacrifise your book out to earn that extra bucks.although its not a big sum of money but im very happy.i really hope to see everything is going well for you.
although i always complain that you are useless but deep in my heart i think youre strong.your life isnt easy.i really hope to see you willing to strive for your future.no matter if our relationship will last or not.sometimes i doubt if i will be able to taste the fruits of our labour.our rs is always on the rocks.but no matter if we still tgt anot i want to see you sucessful.dont waste my 1 year plus effort struggling with you.
i love you ok.

2010-03-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

you keep telling your sis treat marcus well treasure him.do you know you are the same?same as your sis.your damn attitude is untolerable.im so tired facing all these empty promises.sometimes i really feel like giving up.i try my best pave a nice road.i only thought of you for your own good.you will never understand.you wont commit wont settle you still wants to play.how many true hearts are there in this world?if you wish to throw away mine its ok.my patience is already wearing thin.i wanted some love care concern from you.if i dont get that i think i will leave.this time after we leave each other.i really wish it will be once and for all.i love you so much endured many shit.i thought love should have its ups and down but why whenever i got any updates from you i would feel like breaking down and cry.i always ask myself will you give me happiness?im so tired.everytime you ask me "what you want me to do?" i told you.you said you understand said ok but in the end you still repeat the ques again and again.cause you wont change you wont commit you wont grow you wont plan you wont give me hapiness.i named many examples you just hear in from one ear come out from another.im so tired of explaining.this true heart for you is dying treasure it before its gone.

2010-03-09T11:05:00.000-08:00

ever experience forcing to make yourself sleep?cause stress and emotional baggage just keep bugging you.its a tremendous amount for me.im crashing.i wake up in the morning and wish that i was dead.why should i even wake up.
its been like this the past few days.no one to rely on no one to talk to.i tried to talk to someone but that person refuses to give me attention and when i bring up the matter that person will just flare up in the end i cant get anything.i can only keep it in me try to forget.but i cant i just cant.seriously i need help.if not i will be one of those patients in woodbridge serious.
that person dont bother and dont care.what can i do.im trying to stay fine but im going to break down.
i force myself to sleep everyday.once i slp i get all sorts of weird dreams.i wake up need someone to talk to.call heaven no one ans call hell no one ans.even if ans i get scolded and half hearted ans.get angry throw a fuss.all i get is"what you want what you want me to do?tell ma lah"that person fucking flares up at me.or ask me call a counsellor.wtf.i need that ass to care for me be by my side.yet he ask me to call counsellor seek help from others.i told him but he still dun care dun bother.all he care for is HIMSELF only.his things people should care for him stay by his side
other ppl thing non of his business good!

2010-01-26T07:33:00.000-08:00

everything feels so heavy.why?how to adverse this situation?i dont want to give up.things happened although they bothered explaining but i knw it was all pretence.why make my life hard when we can work tgt and be happy?my only breather is like once a week.did many things wrong today.hope they can take back the punishments?haha

2010-01-11T05:03:00.000-08:00

so emotional now.just watched finish zettai kareshi sp episode.wtf lor.so damn sad.im such a failure.why must rs be my top priority.you know you will lose it forever.cause once the connection is gone means its gone.once u break someone's heart badly.u will never get bac to what used to be no matter how hard you try.

2009-12-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

im home!
working is tiring.suffer from sleepless nights and information overload.haha..starting is always hard right?i like my colleagues.nice people.they helped me alot.lucky to have a nice manager.i like working in bugis.can go shopping at break time.can train me wear high heels too.
came back home to study for ftt as i left all my notes here.plus the downloaded test engine from kelin and bf's help.but until nw i still using fb..haha..now study also nth go in too sleepy le.i go slp tmr wake then study :)

got a fetish to see baby in skinnies can?
picture that..haha!

2009-11-29T11:04:00.000-08:00

sometimes i think we are just not suitable to be a cpl.i keep trying to change you to my ideal guy.but you cant.why am i so stubborn and cant let go?we are both tired and know the facts.but why are we trying to make something that seems impossible have an ending.or are you just stalling for time.

2009-11-29T04:34:00.000-08:00

quarelled with bf ysd.went to meet my friends instead of going out with him.

i was so brave lo..roam vivo city myself.it was midnight most of the lights are switched off.i didnt even dare look at the mirror.i think some uncle called me.damn scary i ran.

then proceed to ph.met fiona and theresa outside.lucky they sign me in.went to meet zh.drank vodka on rocks lol.they complain taste like shit.

should have stayed at ph but we headed to wavehse.got the free tics and went in.nth much though.everyone was in bikini and shorts.it wasnt fun for me.i have neither of them.cant play in the pool.one of us saw few guys trying to finger one girl.and i saw some cpl fucking at a corner..haha.think they invisible.some girl dancing on stage almost got the bottom pulled off.

2009-11-26T13:30:00.000-08:00

just home from prawning and bbq.had a GREAT time!!i caught many big prawns.must have had a dozen of them.plus marinated chicken wings cheese sausage.bacon.corn.special made chili sauce.stingray super many lah!shiok!! too much till we cant finish ask other ppl help us eat.got one uncle pour many prawns give us lo.we had one big pail.
selected for sony ericson.went amk interview.then meet sj at cck buy bbq things.

last night went power hse.so many ppl that i cant redeem my ladies drink.k buy us a jug each.then we went dancing.some lady pulled me up stage to dance with her haha..my girl friend from another grp ask my friend for his number lo..so funny..i thought is guy ask for girl number one..

2009-11-20T04:58:00.001-08:00

FUCK EVERYTHING!

2009-11-18T03:50:00.000-08:00

im a happy girl.
baby brought me out on a date.hurhur.
bought me things i wanted
sorry for the hole in your pocket.
i really appreciate it vry much!

2009-11-15T11:30:00.000-08:00

really gotta quit buying cheap dresses.the material so damn bad..i feel sorry for myself.. :(

2009-11-06T06:05:00.000-08:00

is this love?
you said nvr to make me sad,cry.but here you are again.
is it me or you?i think its us both
my mind and my heart is tearing me apart.
everyone in this world is FAKE!FUCKING FAKE.

2009-11-04T06:56:00.000-08:00

been to much places.just came home after watching this is it.

pictures.taken went loof,arena before the guys went taiwan.

took many pictures.even some while we dancing haha.like some bitch.

went k,dye my hair.manymany

hate my hair colour now.so badly done!

2009-10-24T02:32:00.000-07:00

Jay Chou 周杰倫 - Cai Hong/彩虹

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着,
也许时间是一种解药,
也是我现在正服下的毒药.

2009-10-19T17:21:00.001-07:00

deleted manyy haha..hope bf get well asap.then this weekend can go out and play..lol.every week like counting down for his book out so i can pei him.go out or rot at home still feel happy.if is other people i think i will be bored to death.

2009-09-27T11:59:00.000-07:00

this two days pay like fucking shiok lah..but i didnt get to work many hours..off for th next two day dunno what to do..
baby's damn sweet today..he sent me to work!wa lao dunno how happy i am lor..thought its impossible..love him
ytd end work met friend out for dinner.drove to cineand had pasta @ shokudo i think..amazing!tried their pizza and speg..like so damn nice the taste still lingers in my head..i wanna go back there to eat again..next aim is waraku..went k for less than 2 hours and home..
should have took pics of th food..super nice!

2009-09-25T09:07:00.000-07:00

went out with fiona they all today..i think i cant get full enough..like always hungry..didnt manage to get anything off bugis..went iluma play arcade..fish for sweets..the guys wanted to go for a movie..but we wanted to go home..in the end they went mac and we went home..
some prison guy asked us for donation.i asked him how much he earns and he dare tell me 50% lol..funny..

2009-09-25T00:23:00.000-07:00

i totally dig going out with lovelies!!

was suppose to celebrate la's belated bdae on wed but she can make it so went out with shir..went soup spoon tried its pot pie..cash payment only..had to walk v far to withdraw..after that chiong home,changed.

met lynn at mrt.went butter fac.no more free drinks.then hopped to arena.dont like live band,they like shouting nonsense.but its only for awhile.]

guess what happen on our way..we saw a silvercab on fire!damn cool lotsa smoke.thought of setting a fire on the cab too.lol.think only

2009-09-21T12:06:00.001-07:00

vry tiring but working makes me happy..i wanna go teeth whitening on my next off day dunno need how much i want white teeth sosooo much!!

2009-09-07T13:37:00.000-07:00

ytd went qb,the cpl like so xing fu..wedding finish come sing song..they like damn sweet lo..ppl say i like want to marry myself off also..haha..got kinda sad cause i wanted to marry and start a family but im not so fortunate..many stress leh..dunno how to handle..hate it when things dun go your way..

2009-09-04T02:20:00.000-07:00

many many things happen these few days..
went many places..
im just home from shopping..
tiring me out too much..
should i should i not?
i just want to be happy.
dont want to get hurt again..

2009-08-19T18:02:00.000-07:00

im too naive..
now when it became reality..
all things turns out wrong..

happy one year anni

2009-08-15T09:45:00.000-07:00

RAY SIM WANG SI.you are my only 1 yr bf leh..i never thought we will last this long..
i love your just wake up voice.im amazed at how much you understand me like you know what i going to do next or what im going to say next..youre vry sweet when you sleep.like how you can sleep and still cover blanket for me..giving me everything and sleep with nothing and when i want to share with you,you just ask me shut up and slp you nvm one..alot alot..take care of me when im sick carry me to the clinic.treat me eat knowing that after paying you will be left with less than ten bucks till your next paycheck..sms me everyday when you wake and sleep..like so many lo..although sometimes think you very noisy full of nonsense but somtimes also think without u vry quiet..but hor your bad temper should change leh..
goodnight.. :)

2009-08-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

im so proud of myself..hurhur..ate three hour non stop!waited so long to eat steamboat again..today was a busy day to aljunied,bugis,home and steamboat..my ez link money minus until crazy..so damn full now..

2009-08-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

fb lags like **** went k today..fun!ate mos and chatted otw home..i so miss sec sch days cause i have a chance to study..didnt treasure it..im like 18 now all of my friends are all so ahead of me..only now i believe what my parents say..why didnt i listen?seriously if i can have the chance i dun mind going back to sec 4 with my present age..

2009-08-10T11:55:00.000-07:00

heyo!happy national day..
nth much actually..painting room,buy furni,pillow,shop at sheng siong.watched spore idol..damn funny..after that go watch gi joe..ended up with a block nose whole night..like painting..maybe just maybe..can paint again..i miss what i did for my o lvls..i wanna go back sec sch..then i will study real hard and get into poly..

2009-08-05T09:24:00.000-07:00

hey yo!kept this as draft cause..cant show until my bf gets surprised that im not working anymore..

sunday last day there..got little sher bu de..i thought no more friends after that group left but found one more friend..

monday had been jogging with lynn

tuesday done facial and rebonding..the salon was damn cool!they let me use their mesagging chair can choose the strength also..for a moment i think i was vip..cause i came pretty late so like whole salon for me..2 staff doing my hair..they ot-ed till 11 just for me..haha..shiok!

wed met shir and lala..haha took pics

she more scared of the fingers than me

cheese..

i like this

trying to

still trying to

like this most i finally kissed her!!ahha
their my lovlies..love them forever and ever and ever!!!!!!!

thurs met fiona pork and their friends @ bugis..ate pepper lunch and shopped..finally i go to bugis!!ahha..so happy bought shorts with fiona..bought like 3 short one is for 10 bucks only lo hoho!!all on sale!!!!!!so many 50% off..wanna meet her some other day out again..feel so sad that im alone now..iluma was nice..saw a lip balm store like special lo..HAhaHAha!!!!

friday went to surprise bf liao..lol

2009-08-03T15:09:00.000-07:00

this like cool lor..saw it on someone's blog..i like the ending part they hug tgt..so sweet ~~

2009-08-03T14:52:00.000-07:00

so disapointed lo..just because cant celebrate our one year tgt you wanna brk up..really make me think that our rs is so damn weak..you were the one who wanted to patch..you were the one who wanted to say break again..like our rs so worthless..if you think breaking up is so damn fun find someone who can appreciate you then..

2009-07-10T15:49:00.000-07:00

waiting for hair to dry..actually also nth much to blog..work eat sleep...hai..dunno why these few days must eat till full then can sleep..how to slim down..currently addicted to fried luncheon meat and i just ate it with maggie..hohos!!craving for steamboat..wanns go sing karaoke..go drink or smth..sian..$$ fly wher le..

2009-06-30T09:47:00.001-07:00

listening to pink lol
down with this stomachache and now having fever..
theres a little numbing pain from the injection..my mom suspects i got h1n1

2009-06-26T16:13:00.000-07:00

went for facial today..ppl say i look like monster..lols should stop eating supper everyday..

2009-06-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

i wanna see the sunrise..go eat smelly tofu and watch ge tai..tried to go to west coast.kent ridge park.mount faber to watch but always till halfway i wanna go back home and sleep..lol..no chance to go geylang eat..ge tai not up yet..these few days went cine watch movies..eat barbeque food..go around spore aimlessly..still worried bout getting fined..not enough time to slow down before reaching the camera..

2009-06-06T14:43:00.000-07:00

my first day as a server!yes!im not recept le..means i got lotsa chance to run here and there..ok my first goal is to slim down..already manage to keep my room neat..very tired now my legs ache..ate my med to ease the gastric pain..think my body getting not so good.. work till halfway my colleague say i look pale ask me go rest..

2009-06-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

this stomachache is killing me..wish for lots of painkillers..
hai..you dun seem to care..

2009-05-27T21:18:00.001-07:00

heard this song think it sounds like the situation im in now.. :(
mink must grow up!

2009-05-27T21:03:00.000-07:00

thought of how we clean this room tgt it really was fun..but now its all to myself..that other bed sure was heavy..

2009-05-26T18:21:00.000-07:00

9.30 now..baby said he need some time alone to think about us..it hurts but i'll let do..is it too late to make amendments?i sensed smth going wrong..is it a little too late? wrote a little note talking about this intending to give you today..hope you wont leave..i wanna be with you..

2009-05-25T14:33:00.000-07:00

pei boyf go medical checkup today!can our everyday life be like today? although vry simple and plain but really feel vry "xing fu"..
your special so damn special..

2009-05-21T13:41:00.000-07:00

its weird how things change..
we are friends when we are all in the same plight,enemies when we stand on different grounds..say i met a new friend today and lost you as a result..
&
had a tough day at work bad mood all day!

2009-05-19T19:05:00.001-07:00

my hair just wont dry.. im damn tired already ):

2009-05-15T15:06:00.000-07:00

almost called *** to terminate me..walking aimlessly around th shopping centre instead of going to work..wondering why all my jobs ends up like this..
my superiors always ask "you really got the heart for this job anot?" i really put effort into the job but they would still think i just work for fun..i really dun uds..i dont want to be useless..dont want people think i heck care for this job when i really put my heart into it..

think im suffering from low self esteem..please stop saying i have grown fat..i will get angry and hate myself..SERIOUS..the firewall going to spoil liao..dont want to be some emo super-sensitive shit..

2009-05-09T01:37:00.000-07:00

my birthday haha..
colleagues bought a tub of ice cream "cake: celebrated for me..went for pool with them after that..
went home change met la and shir @ kbox..they smash cake onto my face ):
bf joined later then went clubbing..

remember my bdae two yrs ago hahaha..with braces!!

2009-04-29T18:53:00.000-07:00

off day 4!

went to cut my hair,clean hamster cage,sang k and play l4d..hahaha..FUN!!
actually wanna shop at bugis and do my hair extension but when im ready to go out its already 8pm..need to wake up earlier..need more hours in a day..

waiting for the smelly insecticide smoke to clear then i can slp..irritating..

2009-04-24T15:29:00.000-07:00

weets off day 3!
didnt do much but shopped at orchard with fiona..yup thats all..
my bdae is coming!!

2009-04-20T01:53:00.000-07:00

ytd was off day 2!
wanted to meet shir,la and yt to have our hair dyed but shir needed to visit her sis..la wanted to go some other day..yt fell back to slp

then wanted to mit sj and yt go sing k..sang while waiting for yt..got fed up cause she went mia again only calling me at 1 am say she went back to sleep -.-"

so nvm waited for others to finish work.went to eat prata then pool @ irc.

theyre gonna teach me lan today woots..

2009-04-14T19:11:00.001-07:00

had this nightmare i nvr dreamt of in years..woke up feeling damn scared..tried to call bf but no matter how i cant reach him..realised we havent contacted for about a week..i wonder why..feel soo helpless suddenly..

2009-04-13T13:14:00.001-07:00

i must be strong and independent!!

2009-04-11T15:47:00.000-07:00

ytd went out with shir and la..today went to work and went eating with colleagues after that..im soo happy!!i really like being with them..

2009-04-10T00:54:00.000-07:00

2009-04-09T15:17:00.000-07:00

hey im single this month!!haha :) guys call me out!!
disapointed..boyf didnt sms me before boarding the plane..was looking forward for his sms but when i turn on my phone all my sms were from others..nvm
hes gone so means i have moremore time with friends!!yay!!

2009-04-03T23:33:00.001-07:00

so sad ):
wher are all th humans in th world..

2009-04-03T14:49:00.000-07:00

10' Are you's
1.Are you single - no
2.Are you happy - yes!
3.Are you bored - maybe
4.Are you fair - huh?
6.Are you intelligent - maybe..haha
7.Are you honest - yes
8.Are you nice - yes
9.Are you Irish - no

10' Facts about you.

1.Full name - minkhhr
2.Nickname - see previous
3.Birth place - Singapore
4.Hair colour -see previous
5.Natural hair style - ??
6.Eye colour - black
7.Date of birth - 6 may 91
8.Mood - happy~~
9.Favourite Colour(s) - blue
10.One place you like to visit - past

10'questions about my love life.

1.Have you ever been in love - yes
2.Do you believe in love at first sight - no
3.Do you currently have a crush - love?
4.Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yes
5.Have you ever broken someone's heart - dont know
6.Have you have your heart broken - yes
7.Have you ever liked someone but never told them - yes
8.Are you afraid of commitment - no?
9.Who was the last person you hug - boyf
10.Who was the last person you said I love you to - boyf

10'this or that

1.Love or lust - both haha
2.Hard liquor or beer - hard liqour
3.Cat or Dog - catdog!
4.A few best friends or regular friends - few best friends
5.Creamy or crunchy - depends
6.Pencil or Pen - pencil
7.Wild night out or a romantic night in - both^^
8.Money or happiness - both
9.Night or day - night
10.IM or phone - phone

10'Have you ever's

1.Been caught sneaking out - yes
2.Seen a polar bear - no
3.Done something you regret - yes
4.Bungee jump - no
5.Eaten food that fell on the floor - yes
6.Finished entire jaw breaker - huh?
7.Been caught naked - yes ever since i was a baby
8.Wanted an ex gf/bf back - yes
9.Cried bcos you lost a pet - yes
10.Wanted to disappear - yes

10'preferences in a patner

1.Smile or eyes - smile
2.Light or dark hair - dark
3.Hugs or kisses - depends
4.Shorter or taller - taller
5.Intelligent or Attraction - both
6.Topman or zara - lol
7.Funny or serious - depends
8.Older or younger - older
9.Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
10.Sweet or bad - both

10'Have you's

1.Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yes
2.Ever talked on the phone for longer than 1 hr - yes
3.Ever walk on hands - no
4.Ever been to a rock concert - yes?
5.Ever been in a cheerleading team - yes
6.Ever been in dance team - yes
7.Ever been in sports team - yes
8.Ever been in a drama play/production - yes
9.Ever owned o BWW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley- yes cycle
10.Ever been in a rap video - no

10'Lasts
1.Last phone call you made - boyf
2.Last person you hugged- boyf
3.Last person you hung out with - my colleagues
4.Last time you worked - today
5.Last person you talked to - jas
6.Last person you IM'D - eric
7.Last person you text - veron
8.Last person you went movie with - boyf
9.Last person/thing you missed - money
10.Last website you visited - blog

10 ppl to do this :
random

2009-04-03T14:38:00.000-07:00

100 TRUTHS TAGGED BY fiona

001. Real name → mink
002. Nickname(s) → minky,ah meng..bla bla
003. Age → 18
004. Horoscope → taurus
005. Male or female → Female
006. Primary School → fhps
007. Secondary School → jvs
008. Poly or Jc → maybe
009. University → Maybe
010. Hair color → black brown?
011. Long or short → middle
012. Loud or Quiet → loud
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → phone
015. Health Freak → maybe
016. Drink or Smoke? → drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → no
018. Eat or Drink → Eat
019. Piercings → Ear
020. Tattoos → No
021. Social Or Anti-Social → both
022. First Piercing → forgot
023. First Relationship → 12
024. First Best Friend → some "m" girl
025. First Award → Art
026. First Kiss → Parents
027. First Pet → fish
028. First Big Vacation → aussie
029. First Love At First Sight → no
030. First Hug → Parents.
049. Eating → no
050. Drinking → no
051. About To → sleep
052. Excitement Level → normal.
053. Listening to → untouched
054. Plans for today → sleep
055. Waiting for → me to do finish this quiz
056. Energy Level → low
057. Thinking Of Somone → yes
058. Want Kids? → yes
059. Want to get married? → yes
060. Careers in mind → something fun.able to travel
068. Lips or eyes → eyes
069. Romantic or Funny → both
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller.
071. Protective or Caring → caring
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both
074. Sensitive or loud → Loud
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → None.
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Ya
081. Ran away from home → no
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → yes
083. Killed somebody → No
084. Broken someone's heart → maybe
085. Been Arrested → maybe
086. Cried when someone died → yes
087. Miss Someone Alotalot → dunno
089. Yourself → huh?
090. Miracles → Maybe
091. Love at First Sight → no
092. Heaven → nice..when im happy
093. Santa Claus → gimme lotsa pressies
094. Tooth Fairy → waiting
095. Kiss on the first date → depends
096. Are you afraid of anything → alot
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes?
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life → YES!!!!!
099. Do you believe in God → maybe

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people
random

2009-03-30T11:07:00.000-07:00

had fun!ladyboys are SEXY!i touched her boobs haa..more photos uploaded at fiona's public blog..hurhur..

2009-03-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

guess you forgot your words you said on our first day..i trusted your promise..you broke it..your reaction is like its no big deal..i will forgive you and treat it as nothing happen because you know i love you more than anything i have..why take for granted and make use of the love i have for you..thanks

2009-03-28T13:48:00.000-07:00

baby,
you really look like one when youre asleep..
scrunched up into a ball hugging my pillow

2009-03-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

lemme see your chest baby,i wanna find treasure..haa

2009-03-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

quan jia fu ,,

i like (:

2009-03-23T13:20:00.000-07:00

vry vry tired..feeling a little faint and still sneezing away since i woke up.nose is acting up again better hurry to get my med..need food!!feel like eating chocolate but running a fever..i saw maltese in my fridge!!cadbury crunchy bar!!soo lost in thought already..i dreamt of it last night!!
many many things to do not enuff time..wish i could have a sidekick..

love weddings..my cousin got married went taiwan for photo shoot like so damn pretty..one whole lavender field..damn sweet.. all brides always look soo pretty on their wedding day..hehe..makes me wonder how will i look,,what will it be like on my wedding day..
how will my husband be? will he give my hapiness??

guess ill stp,,words are getting blurry..get well soon!!
oh ya congrats to baby for getting promoted..

2009-03-15T14:31:00.000-07:00

baby happy 7 month.. i love you^^
gonna love you long time !! long long time long long long time long long long long time...............

2009-03-10T00:35:00.000-07:00

he bought me to eat smelly tofu haha..told me it smells like shit..and i forced him to eat!!it seems like after you ate it,it wont smell bad anymore..im so going to go back again!

2009-03-06T05:16:00.001-08:00

working working working..hai full time again only worst..cause no weekends off!
manager told me this job suay one 9/10 ppl break up with bf cause of this job..haha
dunno if we can be that 1/10 anot..just wanna spend more time with baby..i wanna go geylang eat smelly tofu!!baby tmr we go ok craving for it like siao..before i go to work

2009-03-04T08:24:00.000-08:00

i like to be with baby cause he makes everyday fun (: thanks for everything
i love you!! happy 21 birthday..

2009-02-24T08:20:00.000-08:00

mustmustmust remember WHY IS THE SHIRT I GAVE MY BF WITH SOMEONE ELSE!!

hmm lotsa pics today too haha..happy working LOVES!!

2009-02-23T08:47:00.000-08:00

cleaned my room today didnt knew i had so many clothes or toys..planning to send some to the salvation army..mummy seems to be the one that cant bear to let me throw my clothings..haha.somethings just went past my mind while packing..many many memories (:

baby! i worked so hard today got reward anot?if you got read this post lah..i just saw this video on youtube..hehe..can you do a striptease let me see haha!!can can?????

2009-02-22T08:26:00.000-08:00

2009-02-22T08:23:00.000-08:00

look alike ma? (:

2009-02-22T08:04:00.000-08:00

yo i got a warning letter from my manager today and my attachment results as well..haha just past..sian lor sure pull down my gpa..happy that i will be working my last four days..in th process of finding a new job..having serious cash problems now..can hardly survive.. ):

2009-02-21T08:57:00.000-08:00

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!
1]eating chocolate now
2]is sleepy
3]need to wait for hair to dry
4]spent almost 500 bucks today-.-
5]left with 10 bucks for the week
7]planning how to survive with 10 bucks
9]waiting for bf to reach spore
10] scared of the weird noises in her own house
11] wants to sleep with her parents now
12]scared to off the lights or leave the room
13]need to finish report
14]too lazy to even start on it
15]thinking of eating
16]hopes all humans turn nocturnal
17]likes bf being in brunei
18]wants a sleepover with my besties
19]wants hair to grow faster
20] wants money!!!!
21] wants long nice nails
22] wants more chocolate
23] is a glutton
24] sleeping soon with the lights on
25] likes sleeping without dreams

tag everyone who reads..haha

2009-02-19T09:04:00.000-08:00

mink is soooo happy today!
cause she received a box of chocolates from her customer (:
treat it as my valentine gift..hehe..cause no one give me anything for valentine..sad hor..but now got one liao haha..im really so damn happy..you know the seashell chocolates?they're so lovely..cant bear to eat them!!

2009-02-15T03:56:00.000-08:00

got tagged to do this by both my besties..lols
1. beside your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed- my ass!
2. how do you feel when you wake up this morning?-damn happy..its my off day bodoh haha
3. who was the last person you took a photo with?my colleagues..happy valentine's day (:
4. would you consider yourself to be spoiled?- no but many take damn good care of me
5. would you ever donate blood?- would
6. have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?- used to (:
7. do you want someone dead?YES!!
8. what does your last text message says?-hmm..if i want to meet out
9. what are you thinking right now?- a new job with lotsa money for ppl to start kissing my ass
11. what is the time you go to sleep last night?- say 4 am
where did you buy the t-shirt you are wearing now?- wearing dress..haha
13. is someone on your mind right now?- of course,,in fact MANY
14. who was the last person who texted you?-someone who told me she wanted to change her name and asked me to call her **** instead..lols
10 ppl tagged to do this quiz:
Name List:ppl who read this
i will be crazy to reply to the questions after this..just plain lazy

2009-02-15T03:08:00.000-08:00

two more weeks till the end of attachment and baby to get back from brunei!!i get so excited thinking about all these..dont care if i fail in the end..i tried my best right..fuck the manager if she dont pass me haha..so im finally home from marina..took stock and chatted with friend for awhile..she showed me th cb manager of hers..haha i think managers are all cb..except for one xoxo..
must must must rmb..office are closed on sat and sun dont be stupid!

2009-02-04T08:38:00.000-08:00

hello..half of my attachment is gonee le like time passes soo damn fast luh..i got this bad feeling that i wont be awarded much marks..manage to piss manager off..with late and stuff..im hardly ever early ): okok..im in need of cash now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-25T05:22:00.000-08:00

happy chinese new year everyone..hurhur
its cny yet like i have no places to go..bored luh..
sooo damn glad to have off for so many days in a row and soon it will all end..
yea..after that i must get a higher pay job!!
i wanna get a new phone and lappy^^

2009-01-17T15:52:00.000-08:00

happy 5 mnths (:
bf fetch me from work didnt really celebrate much..6 mnth also...
tmr is the third week of attachment..get at least a higher pay job and no extensions of hours almost everyday..i think i done more than 10 hours of free labour..manager says can claim time but i nvr even claim until one hour..can i claim them all at the end?maybe finish earlier by two three days

2009-01-15T03:37:00.000-08:00

2 nd week..wishing for IA to end..got my ite results ): hai..
counting down day by day..
i swear im going to celebrate once its over..

2009-01-09T04:13:00.000-08:00

yo!
attachment for a week already..tiring me out..peeps there are nice..just that my body not up to the job..not tall enough to put and get stocks high up..no strength to carry the doors,i was like trying to pull doors up but it just wont budge..box and cartons..and plain blur,forgetful and clumsiness..hate putting make up even blusher must be included damn..hate lo..i feel my skin is withering day by day..sobs ): happy that la and shir came to give me christmas pressie!!
this song is played in th stall i wrk in..(:

2009-01-04T11:36:00.000-08:00

3.35 am still cant slp got attachment hav to wake by 6.30..how sia..later sure sleepy de..hai..cant slp cant slp..pondering bout some things..
wants bf to stop gambling..

2009-01-03T09:34:00.000-08:00

happy 2009..if the first day of new year represents the whole year..it wont be such a bad year after all..some time of 2008 everything was like trash..attachment start 2 days later..im so dreading it..spent countdown stuck in the traffic counting 10-0 with the radio..but with bf beside me its ok..i got him angry on new year lols..but ended up ok..

hmm..resolutions..

i wanna have 10k

slim down

try my best for stuffs

learn how to take and let go

damn hard..guess i'll take a lifetime..wish a happy year ahead

really seems like bf really into gambling..like addicted..its kinda scary..he wont listen to me and quit anyway..

2008-12-31T03:14:00.000-08:00

some song is like stuck in my head now..listening it for past few hours replaying and replaying..hahas..mind drifted..suddenly this word pop into my head luh..mellow..went to search the dictionary..i think thats all i thought of when my mind drifted

2008-12-29T11:10:00.000-08:00

was typing my goodnight sms when i thought of,

going jp,imm,wild wild wet,esplanade,marina barrage,ikea,boat quay,clarke quay,overseas,parks,beach,geylang,changi,jettys,zoo,bird park,night safari or some weird weird places like discovery centre,pulau ubin lol,bla and bla and bla..

i wonder why i start thinking there is no where else to go..prefers nightlife like why cant all humans be nocturnals..i feel my bones weigh a ton when the afternoon sun hits on me..makes me feel like a melted marshmellow~~

bf doesnt seem to like the idea..

he said "you think youre a vampire huh"

2008-12-29T07:30:00.000-08:00

"You are the only thing that would

hurt me to lose.

2008-12-27T02:24:00.000-08:00

fuck up day..
now im super bored..
want to go out..but absolutely no mood..
what to do what to do?
damn bored..
i just saw this damn cool..i want to have this movie!!
《刺青》 SpiderLilies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2pVkDEVDgI&feature=related
rainie and th isabella so sexy (: LOVES~~
having a lessy partner not bad too lols